Decisions

Life is full of decisions. Some of them are easy but most are hard. i have been struggling with a certain decision for months and i'm still not sure what to do. OK sorry, this won't make sense so let me back up. Last week was graduation at The Crown College of the Bible and while i was waiting for my roommate to come so we could go out...i talked to my sister. This is nothing new-i talk to my sister everyday.

My sister, Faith, and her husband, Randy

But she had advice for me that i can't shake. She went to Crown for a year and got married and now has a beautiful family. Alyssa Beth (4), Ryan Scott (2), Justin Bryant(9 months) I have dreamed about what my sister has my whole life. My one dream in life has been to have a husband and gorgeous family. But my whole life has been against me. Guys have never been my strong suit! :-) I have been pushed my whole life to go to college and to graduate. My grandmas want me to graduate because i would be their only grandchild to graduate from Bible college. So i don't even know if i have been going for my grandmas or myself.

ANYWAYZ i told my sister that i was jealous of her and that i wish i had her life. What she told me was this....She said...You can't go to college for other people. You have to go because you want to and you believe it is God's will. You don't have someone waiting for you right now and if you believe you should be at college then stay and maybe who you are to find is right in school. If you leave you might never find them. But if you don't feel its God's will for you to be in school and you should be home then don't go because people want you to graduate.

Well i don't know what i should do. Right now i don't have the money to go back to college and college is supposed to be one of the easiest choices in the world but its not. I dont know what to do. Am i to go back to school or stay home. All i can say is that my sister has the life that i want.

So guys you might see me this next semester but you might not. Most likely you probably will see me but unless God shows other wise you might not!