To all my family, friends, and whoever else reads this......Will you all forgive me, Please?
(I'm sorry if this seems all jumbled but its the best way i can say all this)
For the whole summer, i have been struggling with alot of things....and i haven't known what to do! And during this time i was just a big fake...i was talking the talk but i wasn't really walking the walk. In the past few weeks God has brought situation upon situation into my life and i haven't understood why until now! Let me explain please!
Somewhere, somehow i lost the joy God had given me and i just was living to live...for myself i guess you could say...i wasn't living for the purpose God put me on this earth to do! And that is to magnify, glorify, and exalt the Lord Jesus Christ and show him to others! I have found myself saying things that i have heard my whole life growing up in the ministry but not truly meaning them....
Tonight God really got ahold of me! And i mean REALLY!
I realized that i have been placing my trust in myself and people around me not God where it should be! and that i was planning my future without God, oh i told people that this was Gods will for my life but i never prayed asking God what His plans where for me!
The summer has come and gone and i feel like i have wasted it...I have a little under 4 weeks to be the Christian and witness God wants me to be, the daughter i should be, and the friend i need to be! And i pray to God that he will use me in the place i work, my church, and anywhere i else He will send me in these 4 weeks! And i ask you all to pray for me and to keep me accountable!
Please forgive me for the fake i have been! And help me be the Christian i NEED to be!
Tonight i read - Joel 1-3 and Titus 1-3 - Here is what the Lord gave me! Its amazingly awesome! All i can say is, God works in ways we don't understand but HE does!
Joel 1:12 - "The vine is dried up, and the fig tree languisheth; the pomegranate tree, the palm tree also, and the apple tree, [even] all the trees of the field, are withered: because joy is withered away from the sons of men." - Have you lost your Joy?? Has Joy withered away?
Joel 3:10 - "...let the weak say, I am strong." - With God guiding us...We are strong -- Strong in HIM and HIM ALONE not ourselves!
Titus 1:13 - "...that they may be sound in the faith" - Are you sound in the faith?
Titus 2:13 - "Looking for that blessed hope, and the glorious appearing of the great God and our Saviour Jesus Christ;" - We need to be looking for that hope! And always be looking for Christ to return! It may be today - Praise the Lord!
Titus 3:5 - "Not by works of righteousness which we have done, but according to his mercy he saved us, by the washing of regeneration, and renewing of the Holy Ghost;" - Its not through us! Its God! It is truly and utterly ALL GOD! We are just vessels through which he can flow! Are you and I a vessel worthy of that honor?
Thank you all for looking and reading this! Please don't think this is just a joke, i would never joke about something like this! But i felt i had to tell you all this....and this was the easiest mass communication i could think of!
I LOVE YOU ALL! (i mean this now when i say it....) I will be praying for you all!
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